Dreaming "Gora"

The secret is out. I do dream “gora”. With the new job and a visit from Mom, I have been away from blog-land and missing it tremendously. I was touched by some fellow bloggers inquiries to where I am. The other night I had a dream that I attended a blog meet up in San Fran (jealous of Baraka J).

So there I was, sitting at a large dining table taking in all the new faces behind the stories I read each day. During this dream, my conscious and subconscious were having quite a fight. My mind’s eye dream-view was assigning very Euro attributes to some of the blogger’s whom I KNOW are desi (such as Aisha, Mystic, Baraka, and Opinionatedinjerzee). So I kept telling myself, “No, they don’t look like that, Aisha has beautiful long dark hair, etc.”. LOL

I mulled over this for quite some time once I was fully awake. I don’t consider myself to be racist and I definitely feel that people from Pakistan and India are much more beautiful than those that “look” like I do. It is disturbing and fascinating to me that my mind does truly “think” in white terms.

Despite this oddity, it was a great feeling to “meet” everyone and I hope that all are well.